Dillon,
No one on this forum is thinking you should have done this, that or anything else. Everyone has their own awakening. There is a book often recommended; “Failure of Civility” that provides most of the basic information you should know. Fundimentaly self preservation in a land without laws is the premise of our preparations. The first thing you should analyse is the your location. Does your location have the necessary elements to be a safe haven if there is no electricity? Will you have a water supply and can you keep it? It doesn’t matter how much stuff you have if it can be taken from you by interlopers.
