Could I do it, yes.
Do I want to ..no.
The nightmares are enough to make a person pause, the lifetime of wondering what if, the haunting reminder of the last seconds of that persons life, the look in their eyes, the terror felt at the moment the weapon’s trigger is pulled, the smell of gunpowder, the splash of red that barely registers as you prepare to die even as you are killing the one trying to kill you. All of that is enough to give me pause. Also, my personal issue would be for every life taken, I owe one saved to keep a karmic balance. The idea of a karmic check book keeps me human.
I could if I had to, but then I would have to find a way to save a life later on…and not just the lives saved by taking one. That is still a net balance loss in nature.
When was the last time you went without electricity, running water, food, and had babies screaming for food...now you know why I prep. These are the things a mother's nightmares are made of.