Thank you for sharing Selco.I have never experienced what you have, and I can only use my imagination and the words you have shared to even try to get an idea of what it is like to carry your “dark passenger”. The closest I can relate was once during weapons training in martial arts class. I accidentally drew blood from a good friend who was my training partner at the time. The sight of him bleeding from wounds I inflicted made me very upset, and I lost control of my emotions for a brief period of time. Again, compared to you, I have no idea what it is like. But thanks again for sharing your story.