Hey FT, welcome to the forum. You have a very similar philosophy to mine. Being useful is a great way to secure a bit more safety in a post collapse world.
I also like the part in which you write you are more relaxed about prepping now. I went through similar phases and its just bad to always live with the feeling the sky is falling down. Today I think we should take learning about survival and prepping serious and do our best but if that’s not enough in the chaos that a post collapse world brings then its not enough and I simply die.
Living in NZ you also live in one of the best places in the world when it comes to population density and well… remoteness. Plus when I visited a few years ago I was amazed how nice everyone was. Big fan of your country!
Alea iacta est ("The die has been cast")