You live every day with assassin guilt if finds you when you are weak and tired it gets into your mind and makes you relive it or each time you do it. selco is right right or wrong you will feel the full judgement when these ideas come home to roost. I can say i did it because my country needed it, i can say i did to for my squad, i can say i did it for my life and others. when i am alone with with my thoughts i fight the images alone. I call it assassin guilt because it stalks you and finds you no matter where you go to hide i knows you shadows you and all you can do when it comes is to relive and remember why.
you will need to find away to live with it, the first part the killing is easy the living with it is not quite so easy if you still desire to have some what “normal” relations with other